As one among millions of book lovers, if I had to give one solid definition of my personal reading habits, I'd say I'm a mood reader with a hunger for personal growth, lifelong learning, and reading as a form of self-care. But the benefits of reading go beyond the curation of books and growth; the impact of books on personal development and books that make you think differently are the very essence of why reading matters.
Choosing to read, choosing books that inspire growth...this is how reading changes your perspective. How reading makes you a better person, sometimes even regardless of genre, topic, or style.
But as much as I love it, I'm sorry to report that reading on its own isn't a magic solution to the world's problems. A good story might offer escape from reality, a thrilling new adventure, an inspiring quote, or even a series of life hacks, but to harness the power of so many words on a page, we must remember that reading is a tool to be used with purpose and intention.
We were in the checkout line at the pharmacy when I picked it up. I glanced at my father, standing beside me, bald head gleaming with sweat. It never mattered how meticulously clean he was or which cologne scented the air around him; he was a large man, and he seemed always to be steaming in the Florida heat. In those early days, we were still the best of friends. I was eleven then. Maybe twelve.
I slid my fingers over the front, delighted by contrast of a plain, butter-yellow cover against the texture of an embossed title: Love Only Once. The author's name was raised too, and I traced the curvy script with something akin to glee. I had never read a book with such a simple, yet perfectly elegant presentation. It felt special. Fancy. Grown up. Another feature I'd never seen filled me with wonder. Behind the unassuming shield of the plain front was a beautifully romantic image, like a photographed painting—the artwork of 90's romance now known as the stepback cover.
My father bought the book for me, most likely utterly unaware of what waited inside. He could never have known how the course of my life would shift in those moments, how a longing for earth-shattering romance would spark a flame in my soul, how the characters represented in Johanna Lindsey's Malory Family Saga would fill an empty place in the heart of a girl starved for affection, protection, and safety.
I spent the afternoon mesmerized by a untamed womanizer caught in an accidental romance. And I spent the night reading in my closet with the light on, more alive than ever before, my eyes racing over tantalizing descriptions of passion and growth and people who fought for each other no matter what. From the new thrill of historical romance to the shocking transition of enemies to lovers, complete with forced proximity, mistaken identity, and a delightfully reformed bad boy...I simply COULD NOT go to bed without finishing the story.
That book opened the door to so many others, through which I have learned about love and family, patience and forgiveness, perseverance and incredible fortitude. Books of every genre have showed me the way to recovery from trauma, and introduced me to people and cultures I might never have known existed. They taught me grace and compassion, providing unknown community for a girl who was always just a little strange.
Books taught me to craft—not only with wood and yarn and paper, but with purpose and integrity. They taught me to mother, to lead, to garden, to cook. Through words carefully crafted by the writers before me, I found peace, and acceptance. In many ways, each and every book I read helped pave the way to my walk with God.
Thirty years later, that novel still lingers in the corner of my heart, shining hope like a beacon on my dreams. And every time I look back on that girl in my memory, I thank her for a gift she didn't realize she was giving. As humans, we live and breathe and dream, so many of us achingly unaware of our ability to reach out and take those dreams in our hands, to mold them into something real, to walk through them the way we walk through our homes every day.
And this haunting awareness? This yearning desire to see and learn and feel and experience? This, my friends, is the true magic of a book.
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When I look back, I can't imagine my life without all the ways reading blessed me. I can't imagine myself without the impact reading has had on me as a woman, a Christian, a mother. A writer. A person.
Lately, most of my reading consists of one book: my own. STILL FIGHTING FOR FREEDOM should have been finished months ago but I'm still editing—and while I'm frustrated by the delay, I'm still madly in love with Christine's story. I've completed two rounds of proofreading, and as I work toward the goal of shaving 30,000 words from this giant of a novel, I'm praying daily over the readers who will sink into this story and soak their hearts in hope.
In the end, I know the time spent is worth it, no matter how grueling editing can seem. The story is worth it. The goal is worth it. And with every word I write, every edit I make, we're all one step closer to seeing this story in the hands of those who need the reminder to...